Burning out

I haven't felt very motivated lately at all, concerning work and school related endeavors. I think every potential ounce of motivation has been diverted to old hobbies, like web design and crafty things. I guess I've become sort of burned out on college life, i.e. working for the vast majority of the day, and when I'm not doing that, spending time with Andy and friends, sleeping, or eating. Basically, since I've been at college, I've been just getting by on the essential acts. Even with little vacations thrown in, it can be very tiring, because after working so hard I spend my vacations just vegging rather than doing things I actually enjoy.

I miss the days when work and school didn't dominate my life so much. By no means is this any indication that I don't want to be here anymore, because it'd take a bus hitting me or something equally tragic to get me to give up the education I'm getting here. It's just... Tiring. Perhaps especially so with my illness, since I don't have much energy to begin with. I feel like I'm a car that never has a full tank -- someone puts in a dollar's worth of gas every morning, but sometimes that's not enough to make it through the whole day. I find myself falling asleep in class frequently and putting off my work until the last minute. I wish that I could use this summer as one last slack off vacation, during which I'd just do whatever I wanted to collect some sanity before returning to this monotonous lifestyle, but I can't.

At least once I finish grad school and begin my career, work will stay at the office and my nights and weekends will be mine. That's all I ask for or need. Just four more years, I guess. I'm 1/3 of the way there.